Ive been missing my NYC fix for a while, ever since I moved a couple months ago. Something about that place and how much I thrive there. I definitely come across a lot of ppl, who have a negative or drained energy when talking about NYC.
This Month and it being Retrograde, April has been about Spring Clearing, and not the norm emotional bootcamp like every other moon phase cycle. Im feeling a certain shift and its a steady one with more awareness.
We started our vacation off with Jet lag. despite the slow vibe we felt. We got dressed and put ourselves present. As we both walked outside, This super-eminent feeling came over me as the warm breeze and sun-rays touched my tanned skin. That water of weird energy and vibes were starting to blow away. I embraced love, and this moment. We're in Africa. Pure Isness.
Too much force is given for me to relate with my old self....
My ability to hold space has been the biggest challenge and I have noticed a huge change in that as well. I just don't have the capacity to really allow much to sway me anymore. Certain people no longer drain me, I no longer get caught up in the dark side more than my light and Im not attracting Low vibrational bullshit.
There are temples everywhere and everyone is in a collective state of gratitude and love. Yesterday was a day to honor 'metal' so all the cars and motorbikes were adorned with offerings and today was a day to honor having food, tourism, and having a good year for everyone. It hit me, I am so honored to be here, to be with them celebrating, and I applied that in my life in that exact moment. This is what I've prepared for, not just Bali, but the space to be aligned in my awareness and openness.
I've been missing my NYC fix for a while, ever since I moved a couple months ago. Something about that place and how much I thrive there. I definitely come across a lot of ppl, who have a negative or drained energy when talking about NYC. It has definitely shaped my Journey in the right timing finally.
Can I be raw right now?
Im sharing my true thoughts, and the way I pull myself out of those dark moments. Yet, Im challenging myself to go through this journey.
And Just Like That Im Moving Again.
I told myself I was not ever moving again, and then after that last move, I said Im staying put here for at least 5 more years. This was it, my last chance at leaping in to the unknown of self-happiness.........